i see you

I know my blog feels like is going to die soon because I’m lazy to update frankly. Somehow my mojo in blogging can’t be found. Anyways I want to share a song that I personally love it because it touches my heart every time I hear it. One of the most meaningful song I have ever hear and the words in the lyrics are so pure that it makes you feel vulnerable. This is how strong the songs affects me.

See you 

I see you 

Walking through a dream 

I see you 

My light in darkness breathing hope of new life 

Now I live through you and you through me 

Enchanting 

I pray in my heart that this dream never ends 

I see me through your eyes

Living through life flying high 

Your life shines the way into paradise 

So I offer my life as a sacrifice 

I live through your love 

You teach me how to see

All thats beautiful 

My senses touch your word I never pictured 

Now I give my hope to you 

I surrender 

I pray in my heart that this world never ends 

I see me through your eyes 

Living through life flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise 

So I offer my life 

I offer my love, for you 

When my heart was never open 

(and my spirit never free) 

To the world that you have shown me 

But my eyes could not division 

All the colours of love and of life ever more

Evermore 

(I see me through your eyes) 

I see me through your eyes 

(Living through life flying high) 

Flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise 

So I offer my life as a sacrifice 

And live through your love 

And live through your life 

I see you 

I see you

tony & guy academy

Before I start off with this post, I want to acknowledge everyone that I’m fine and not so depress anymore. I’m still kind of down but is not that bad more so please bare with me if I blog anymore emotional post.

Who can ever thought that one day I can be a hair model? *proudness*  Unfortunately I need to burst your bubbles because is not those fancy catwalk type of modeling but is to have my hair done by the students at their academy. Is like a tutorial class where their trainer is there to guide the students and give them advices on how to work with future clients.

A lovely surprise when I saw HItomi was one of the models.

This was how each hairstylist did when they communicate with their models, listing down the history of their hair and what steps to be taken.

This is the end result of my hair dye; I love it to the max!

If I’m not wrong, my hairstylist, Billy, chose a greenish brown color with a touch of ash/grey for me. Different right from my initial hair where the end was brown gold with blonde highlights.

But of course, I brought my Darling Reiko with me as well. As a matter of fact, she is a model so is more natural to her compare to me.

I am very happy and fortunate when the people from Tony and Guy Academy approached me and asking me to be their models. Not only I have a new look but I gained new friends as well. Best of all, Billy said he would love to have me again as his model for his graduation day.   I feel so honor and happy when he asked me; hope that I won’t be having my finals at that time. *fingers cross*

I'm Drain Off

I'm very lost and confuse with what I should do know. Due to my emotional break down, my body system have also been down. Last Sunday, the first thing I felt was the sharp and dry feeling running down in my throat. It has been a while since I got a severe sore throat infection. In the beginning I didn't bothered much because I thought it will go away fast because I get mild sickness constantly every month.

Unfortunately, I was wrong and end up I suffer from it. Thanks to this stupid infection, I started to cough and the next thing came up was flu. In the beginning, it wasn't that bad but as time goes on it gotten worse. The flu cause my nose to be blocked then will have running nose and the cycle repeat itself. Not only that but my cough has gotten worst until I can't stop coughing. Best part of all, I had high fever for a couple days.

Thats one of the reason why I went MIA for the past few days. Currently I'm still sick but not that bad already. I want to apologize to all my dear friends and family for making you worry. Sorry for not picking up your calls and didn't replied your messages. Most of the time I left my handphone in silent mode. Nevertheless I want to say thank you to all of my ji muis, gor gor and besties for all of your love and care; make me feel so touch and love. ♥ ♥ ♥

To be honest, I'm afraid of relationship now. I don't know what to do. Should I give him second chance? Should I let him back into my life? I can't find an answer to it now because my heart is not ready yet. I don't even know what my heart wants actually. I can only feel my heart want to close its door and lock it. I still have another unsettle business with him that will be done after he finish his finals next week. Now I'm just lost and confuse...

A Fool I am

Unconsciously in my mind I always want to be with a guy who can take care of me and never hurt me. But in reality I always tell myself that I shouldn’t rely solely on men because they end up breaking your heart. Coming from a broken family like me is hard not to be pessimistic in relationships. All I ever wanted is a stable relationship with a guy whom I love. However the truth always hurt.

Currently I have no idea what is my status now with him. He doesn’t seem to care about me. He doesn’t message nor call me unless after a long period of time. Most of the time I’m the one who contact him. I feel that I’m the one who is trying to save our relationship when he doesn’t give a damn at all. I don’t know his part of story since I don’t talk to him also. His heart is no longer with me anymore. I know I have to let go but is a real disappointment for me as I HATE giving up on relationship unless really got no other choice.

Then I just realize that I’m still not over him, my ex-boyfriend. How ridiculous of me right. I feel so stupid for being this way. Honestly I thought I was over him but in real world I haven’t. Despite didn't talk to him once we broke up but when I saw him dancing closely with girls in the club, I feel heartache. My heart feel so pain when I laid my eyes on him. Am I so useless that I can't get over him despite we have broken up for more than 8 months already??? My heart really hurt so much and I keep holding back my tears because I know is no point to cry over the past.

I don’t want to fall in love anymore. It hurts so much until you can feel a knife is stabbing your heart. Why men are like this?? They can just move on from one relationship to another so fast. Why none of the guy I ever be with just appreciate me and love me whole heartedly? I can be very tolerant and I do not ask much from them. What can I do that I won’t be hurt by anyone anymore? I don’t want to put my heart and soul into any guy already. It always end up I’m the one with broken heart. How to fix a broken heart?

gifts ♥

I was showered with gifts last week. Not exactly “shower” but still I received a few number of presents and best part of all, it wasn’t my birthday nor any special occasion. So I was happy when I was given gifts which I didn’t expected for it.

This adorable little baby penguin was a gift from Brendan when he went to Singapore. CUTE!!! 

Daddy came back from Thailand and of course he bought me some souvenirs back. One of it was a silk scarf in a sweet green bag.

My most favorite gift is this Topaz ring that Daddy gotten for me. I am being surprise by Daddy every time when he gets me a gift because his taste gets better every single time.

According to Daddy, Topaz is my birth stone. I absolutely ♥ the color (my favorite blue color) and design of the ring as well. The ring fits my finger perfectly too!

I remember distinctively that Daddy told me to wear it with CARE because he knows how clumsy and forgetful of me. If I ever loose this ring, Daddy would be extremely furious! *touch wood* 

Last but not least, I would like to say thank you so much for the gifts! I absolutely love them all.

Wei Jie & Ying Zi's Trip to M’sia

It was fun meeting up with Wei Jie and Ying Zi during their trip down to KL. Best part of it was all of them I know from blogging. I got to say blogging has literally change and enlarge my world of friends. Each of them has affected me one way or another and personally some have become my close friends now (you know who you are).

I’m so happy that I started blogging because all these bloggers have add on more colors into my life and they keep on continue doing so. Though there were some bad moments with certain bloggers (those who are close to me would know about it) but at the end, I know who are my true friends and I’m glad how things work out in the end.

Below are some of the pictures that we took during their 2 days trip. I had lots of fun and I can’t wait for them to back to KL again.

Do they resemble the Twin Tower?

Ying Zi a.k.a Dream2breakaway.

Wei Jie, a guy who looks younger than his age.

Xiang with his precious baby DSLR.

Samuel, the guy who has the brightest smile I have ever seen.

One of my closest ji mui, Victoria!
Can you spot something unusual in the picture? 

What are they doing?!?!

The sweet couple!

My tai kor, Jackie who is playing with Ying ZI’s pink camera.

Can’t help not to cam whore!

The last picture we took. All of us look so sweet together just like a one big happy family! ♥ ♥ ♥

Cheers!

duck duck duck

During Wei Jie and Ying Zi trip to Malaysia, we went to quite a number place to enjoy a variety of foods. Thank you to God that Malaysia has awesome food from all the different races and culture in the society. It is without a doubt that Malaysia is famous for its food that makes people couldn’t stop coming back. Don’t you agree?

Thanks to Jackie, we managed to swing by at a local Chinese restaurant that sells ducks rice. This particular is shop is very famous for its duck delicacy and I understand why. Jackie and I arrived first before the rest and the place was packed! Even there was a queue for take away.

Look at all the delicious duck; yummy.

Below are all the food that we had; firstly was the “char siew”. Taste DELICIOUS! ♥ ♥ ♥

Unfortunately I’m not sure what is this dish called.

Our main dish, the mouth-watering roasted duck! Though I’m not a big fan of any duck dish and I very seldom eat it as well but very surprisingly I find the duck tasted real GOOD.

 

If you LOVE duck rice, then you have to come to this restaurant. It is located at Taman Connaught next to Dominos. Sadly to say I can’t remember the name of this place. *smack forehead* Nevertheless, if you know where is Dominos then you know where this place is.

A small gentle reminder, if you want to try all these mouth drooling dishes make sure you  be there early because they sell off VERY VERY VERY FAST! Regarding on the price, I'm not really sure because I didn't know how much it cost and all of us split the bill equally. However, the money you are paying for it is definitely WORTH IT.

Just by looking at the pictures, has your stomach started grumbling already?

worst restaurant ever

Previous weekend, Wei Jie  & Ying Zi came down to KL for a short trip. I’m sure many people in the blogosphere recognize them because they are the infamous bloggers from Singapore. I know Ying Zi before this but it was my first time knowing Wei Jie.

Let me skip the rest of the trip first, later on only will I blog more on our outing. We went to this restaurant located in SS2 called the “Lorong Seratus Tahun”. Xiang, Jackie, Ying Zi, Victoria, Samuel, Wei Jie, Mel and myself were there. This restaurant is forever permanently black listed in my account and there is GOOD REASON for it.

Mel, Cutely yours, Wei Jie, Ying Zi & Jackie. 

Menu of the restaurant.

Food that we ordered was Char Kuey Teow;

Penang Rojak (which took forever to come, pity Jackie);

Curry Mee.

In the beginning, it was all alright and we ate our food with good appetite. However, pity Ying Zi when comes to her meal. She was eating her curry mee peacefully but in the middle of the way she found there was a COCKROACH LEG in her curry!!! WTF!!!

Immediately we complaint to the manager. He was like trying to negotiate with us and wanted us to give him an easy escape but we definitely did not give in. At the end, he didn’t bill us for the food we ate but only charged us for the drinks. I consider that they are very lucky. If we want, we can sue them for this.

EWWWW!!! SO DISGUSTING!!!

Not only that but the staff there was BAD! The waiter was so RUDE to us and that alone pisses me off. The cockroach leg was the last draw. So now I want to tell you guys not to go into this restaurant. Possible tell this incident to your friends and family about it so they won’t be the next victims.

Honestly is the WORST RESTAURANT I HAVE EVER ENCOUNTER IN MY LIFE.